Killer in the hall closet

We're here again at Stanford and Mike is in for another PET scan. It's been an emotional week for us. Three men that we have prayed for and shared the experience of cancer this past year have all died this week. One of them meant a great deal to us and yet all three of them touched our lives in heartfelt way. All have gone home to be with the Lord, and all left a legacy of faith and families behind to mourn their loss. It's been hard, and now here we sit again to find out if there is any sign of returning or spread of the original cancer. I wouldn't say that we are worried, but it is hard not to think about it. Being here back at Stanford always brings lots of memories and in the wake of these men of God dying this week, many emotions.

I find that about the week before every big test or visit, we feel the presence of the" What if? ". I liken it to having a killer living in the hall closet. He's locked in and you can't see him. He's quiet for the most part, and as you go up and down the hall, you are aware that he's there, and on a daily basis don't give him any real thought. However as scans and doctors visit's come close, the killer begins knocking, (quietly at first) and even though you don't believe that he is going to get out, you are ever so aware of the presence. The knocking gets louder as the day approaches, and when we are finally here, we wait to hear if the killer will stay locked up or has he been let out. We'll know about 2pm today.

We know that God is on the throne and we are securely in HIS hands. Thank you for all who are praying, and have been loving and supporting us through this. We are HOLDING FAST believing that God is going to continue to bless us as He continually has through the whole cancer experience.